She Who Remains by Rene Karabash

She Who Remains

Rene Karabash

This poetic novel seemed to transport me back to medieval times but nothing could be further from the truth. Bekija, a 33-year-old woman living as a man in an Albanian village in 2017, tells her sad life story to a journalist. She’s forced to change sex because of an ancient folk law after an event that defines her life - and that of her brother and lover. I found it a moving tale of sorrow, misunderstanding and oppression.

Extract

Kuka's hand clenches my mouth shut, Kuka's hand is now an inextricable part of my face, I take this hand and this stranger's body as my own, ding ding ding ding, I am no longer in this scene, I am witnessing everything from outside my body, my hair swims in the warm milk, my eyes stare into a small hole in the wall which moves in rhythm with the galloping horse, I've never seen it before but there's light coming through the hole in the wall, yes, I see it for the first time and from today on this hole exists because I see it, the hole hurts, it hurts

are you pure
I am pure

don't cry, Bekija, I hear my mother say, let whatever hurts you remain here, and the milk of life floods my black dress and the church bells fall silent, the snake is fed, I close my eyes ...

Parallels
  • Broken April by Ismael Kadare
  • Sworn Virgin by Elvira Dones